Monday 12/13/04 -- Follow-up hospital visit
Well, the bandages are off. And now I'm in pain. I guess it's to be expected. I can't rely on pain meds forever. At some point, the pain has to make itself known. Still, I asked for stronger meds so I can rest peacefully. A little pain is okay. Agony is unnecessary.
I'm slowly getting back to a regular schedule. All in good time. I'm not rushing this process. Not working yet. I can't hold Hunny's leash alone. There's no way I could handle even the most well-behaved group of dogs. Lifting is out of the question. At least for a couple of more days. I'm eating more solid foods. It's not the most comfortable chew but it's better than sucking oatmeal through a straw. I still can't open my jaw fully. Well, I guess I *can* but given the pain I was in earlier, I'm thinking no.
It's amazing the things I'm learning about myself, life and the world around me, just from this one experience. I understand now why the jaw is the strongest muscle in the body. It's used more than I ever would've known. Talking, laughing, smiling, yawning (ouch) and chewing, are just some of the very basics. Lifting, showering, stretching, walking and of course singing, are all things that affect my jaw. I couldn't sing softly or hum to most of the music I heard today. Not just because of the limited range of jaw motion. It takes strength in the jaw muscles to get the vocal chords rolling. Sitting up in bed takes a lot of neck muscle. I have to strategically roll over and use my hands to support and lift my head before I sit up.
It gets better as each day passes. It's not as dramatic as it may sound. I'm just noticing all the little things that require use of these muscles on a regular basis. It gives me a whole new appreciation for this body that works so hard.