Wednesday, November 3, 2004

Peace is the way

If there was ever a desperate call for peace, this is the time.
 
I'm so upset.  I've been listening to NPR non-stop.  I watched CNN and NBC all night.  I dreamed about numbers, colors, parties and devastation.  I slept unsoundly for three hours.  I awoke at four this morning in sheer despair.  Not only about the final results of the election.  But also because I am acutely aware of how divided we really are as a nation.  Even in our own voting system -- the unbeatable two-party system -- no matter what our political stance, we fight - Democrat against Republican.
 
I'm not surprised by the results of the voting polls.  I do have my strong beliefs about how our president gets to smear fear and hate all over us for the next four years.  I'm angry that we, as a nation, are allowing this to happen ... again!
 
I'll get over it.  I'll work through it.  I did last time.  But what the hell has to happen for us to wake up?  How much worse can things get before we realize how corrupt our system is -- how deceitful our president is!  Our president does not speak for me.  He's not interested in my issues, my beliefs, my campaigns.  And by "my" I mean anyone who doesn't think exactly like him.  This dictatorship disgusts me.  The US is a laughing stock.  I am no longer proud to be an American in today's America.  It pains me to say that.  I ache in the pit of my soul.  I miss our United States. 
 
I agree we must find a way to put our differences aside and come to a common ground to band together as a nation.  That's the ultimate goal.  I'm not suggesting we keep our mouths shut and deny our truth and beliefs (ha! that will never happen).  I'm saying, find a thread where we cross over in those clashing areas.  Find ways to see and hear one another with open minds and hearts - without the risk of feeling threatened, minimized or discounted.
 
But right now I'm too pissed off!  In order to get remotely close to that common place of understanding, I have to recognize and respect these rageful feelings by giving them space to be heard.  Only when I honor all parts of my process will I find that place of acceptance, and allow what is to be what is.

I'll get there.  I just need to get this out so I can move on.
 
The quote above is something I've seen in a friend's house for the last five years.  Every time I read it, it's as if I'm noticing it for the first time.  And each 'first time' I'm profoundly affected by its meaning.  Perhaps the events of this election were what was needed for me to remember it as truth.

24 comments:

donah42 said...

I don't know that I can ever make peace with this. I don't think I can put aside my differences when the earth is being raped, when people are being discriminated against based on their sexual orientation, when the Bible is being used to preach hatred instead of love... I feel like a tiny cog in the machinery of corporate America. Maybe I'll feel better tomorrow...

heartsingr said...

It seems that I'm one of the few evangelical christians that did not vote for Bush.  It also seems that according to some, I'm not a real christian.  I think that's simply outrageous.  I don't know what we can do to bring out country together.  I wish I did, though.  ::::sigh::::

~Laurie

derossetfamily said...

I'm *right there* with you, Freee. I was up all night. I cried out of sheer despair, and today my brow was furled from sheer anger. And it really gets me that the people who voted for him are most likely the people that need change the most. My son will be 8 before there is any more hope in sight, and it scares me to think of how much worse off we'll be and how much more in debt Evan will be because of the monetary cost of war. And just so many other things. There is so much wrong with this administration when someone asks why I dont like W, I dont know where to start. John asked me the other day what about America I do like, and I was so pissed, because I just couldnt answer. And that really sucks.
~Mary

grodygeek said...

Freee
I voted.
I voted for Kerry.
I too am disappointed.
I too listened too much to NPR.
I found the gloating by evangelical extremests on all thing considered too much to bear.
I know the Shrub got more votes than any other candidate.
I also know more votes were for any other candidate than in previous election history.
Regardless of what the GOP has to say, I know they do not have a mandate, they squeeked by.

This too shall pass.

Gordy
the cycling unfunny depressed comic

luckyaugustgirl said...

Your words, even though clear and blunt, are comforting.... its nice to know we arent alone out there. John Kerry was a man i was proud of, and i was sorry to hear that he wont be able to lead us into a future of hope. But your right, we must do the best we can, and fight like hell for Hilary in 2008~ Four more years until we can gather the perverbial boot with the steel toe, and boot his a@# out of office..... Errrrr ummm excuse me, Im done now..... :)  Wishing you the swifter route to peace in your heart~ Sarah

pollysci said...

Ditto.

Great quote, girlie :)

~tara

jcgeorgiapeach said...

I'm so glad you have a place here where you can give voice to your feelings.  Thinking of you, hon.  ~Peachy

takaminegtrplyr7 said...

"Most people are other people.
Their thoughts are someone else's opinions,
their lives a mimicry,
their passions a quotation"
- Oscar Wilde

babyshark28 said...

well, here is my 2 cents.
I voted for Kerry, I wanted a change too.  But, it seems it did not happen.
but, I am willing to work with Bush again.  Keep my eyes and ears open to what he is or isn't saying. I am hoping these next 4 years bring us Wisdom!
I am glad you got this out freee. :D

ksgal3133 said...

I pray and hope for peace every single day.

Gretchen

ryanagi said...

*sigh*

digiartist said...

Imagine
         
Imagine there's no heaven
It's easy if you try
No hell below us
Above us only sky
Imagine all the people
Living for today...

Imagine there's no countries
It isn't hard to do
Nothing to kill or die for
And no religion too
Imagine all the people
Living life in peace...

You may say I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will be as one

Imagine no possessions
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
A brotherhood of man
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world...

You may say I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will live as one

written by John Lennon "Imagine" was John Lennon's second major release apart from the Beatles. Released on Sept. 9, 1971 (US) and Oct. 8, 1971 (UK).



kuhlhiggins said...

I am so glad that I came to your journal. It comforts me to see that there are a lot of people who voted for Kerry. It seems as though the only Democrats that my Mother and I are the only Democrats around. My brother is a Republician and I had to listen to his nonsense all day yesterday about what a great President Bush is. I am glad that I voted for Kerry and would do it over again in a heart beat no matter what these Republicians come up with.
Love,
Kat
http://journals.aol.com/kuhlhiggins/AdventuresinKatLand

redhdka said...

It'll take a few days and the sick feeling will go away and we will be back to our normal happy selves.

judithheartsong said...

Absolute TRUTH. Thank you. judi

indigosunmoon said...

I'm deeply saddened too honey.
What ticked me off beyond belief
was when ole Dubya said
"America has spoken!"  
All I can say is..."Well George, half
of America did...does it make you
feel proud that half of America
can't stand you?"
Love ya honey,
Connie

screaminremo303 said...

Just remember the President is merely a figurehead for a vast community of over 250 Million people. It is irrational to believe he could have enough power to make us all unite on every issue that exists, as he merely handles the wheel while we float downstream. It is up to people on the individual level to resolve common differences which threaten to splinter our ability to function as a society.
It's just like working for a really, really huge corporation. The CEO can't do shit about getting Pop-Tarts in the cafeteria snack machines.

mikeyandmichelle said...

(((Freee))) ...I don't see things the way you do.

We have been at war long before Sept 01 and other President's had ignored it.  The bombing of S.S. Cole, the first WTC bombing... to name a few.  Yes, Bin Laden was the mastermind behind 9/11 and hopefully someday he will be brought to justice.  But when war was declared, it was declared to combat terrorists where ever they may live.  Al Queda has a strong hold in Iraq, they are responsible for terrorist activity all over the world.  They use children as suicide bombers....children!

Our military has taken Saddam Hussein out of power.  Saddam has committed genocide on his own people, he buried the people he murdered in mass graves.  How long should the world sit and watch (and ignore) what he doing?  Did we not learn anything from the Hitler and his vendetta against the Jewish?

I hate war, it's ugly.  I pray to God that my children are never called to fight in one... But I feel that G. W. finally woke up and heard the alarm clock of terrorism that has been invading our lives for years.  Our world will never be the same...

             

s0ngbird1962 said...

(((Freee))) I worked the night shift last night and kept thinking back to the post I left regarding this entry.  I felt bad because I realized that although your feelings about the election and the President are not the same as mine, they are valid and very real.  I'm sorry....  

Although we do have different political beliefs there is one common thread that does unite us together.  The desire for peace....

slowmotionlife said...

As soon as I figure out how, I'm going to manifest my anger into action.  I'm not sitting still another four years.  

krobbie67 said...

I've read this a dozen times or more since last week. But, I just don't know what to say except I hear you. :-) ---Robbie

ondinemonet said...



        (((((Trish)))))

Always, Carly

ncanfall said...

Clearly you are understood, whether people express that to you are not! I would like to share this with you: today's society express difference to the highest extent.  Society see's agreement as boring and nonconfrontational, this is the problem! Politics is suppose to be confrontational as far as the government is concerned, so peace is not the plan. If there was peace there would be no government! Everyday I fight the same up and down depression, but I know it helps nothing. My advice to you is simple"The serenity Prayer".

Peace is GOD'S government, man don't except that, because it takes away there power and influence on the world they control with fear!

forever
MR.PEACE
icu2_o6@hotmail.com(the letter "o"not the number)

diannevan said...

Well, the fact that it took nearly a month for me to finally make it to your journal's old entries is proof that I was in gut-wrenching turmoil myself since the election.  For two weeks I couldn't stand the thought of reading anything because I felt doomed.  I'm coming out of it and I'm determined to live my life.  

One thing, though.  I'm not ashamed to be an Amercian.  I'm ashamed of my president and I'm ashamed that slightly more Americans voted for Bush than Kerry, but I know our country will get through this.  It'll probably take 20 years to undo Bush's damage, but it will happen.