Friday, July 2, 2004

Peace?


Behold the new addition to the PeaceMobile.
  No matter what angle I look at it, I just don't feel it today.  With this on my car, I really have to track my road rage.

To take my mind off of how sick I feel, how bored I've become, and how thoroughly disgusted I am with this new last-minute client, I picked up my guitar and played a few songs.  I didn't realize how much strength I was using just to sing.


After a few songs [on partial energy] I feel weak, tired, my throat is sore and I broke out in a cold sweat.  But it was worth it.  I miss singing.  Playing my music is what helps keep me sane and motivated.  It's like a personal meditation.  So, not being able to play/sing whenever I want, has been more than frustrating.

Today's experience with this new client put me over the edge of insanity.  They live in filth and disgust.  She left no emergency information, no local contact numbers or no numbers where she could be reached - out of state.  She neglected to write down all of her pets' names [as I asked] so I have no choice but to call them sweetie, love, boy, girl, kids...whatever they will respond to.

But the bonus:  She left NO MONEY.

The even bigger bonus:  Her apartment should be condemned.

I put my health at risk every time I step near that place.  The smell of mold, mildew and steamy pet stench is overwhelming.  It's rancid.  How did I not notice this yesterday when we met?  "Forgive the mess, I'm getting married."  That's all I remember from yesterday.  What the hell does that mean?

I'm sure there's no mistake in the missing emergency information.  It's so bad that if I did have her phone number, I'd call her and tell her she needs to come home now to take care of her own animals because I won't do it for one more minute.


I even got the name of another petsitter who is available to help me this weekend.  But because I don't know if I'll get paid for this job, I can't hire her.  I'm tempted to bring the animals to their vet for the rest of the weekend.  She would have to bail them out when she returns.  But that would be more work than I care to engage.

So now, I'm stuck caring for these pets.  This is where my heart has to rule.  I can't take out my frustrations on the animals.  They are obviously loved and well-trained.  [But now I completely understand why they're also crazy and needy].  But I can't spend a lot of time with them because the smell of mold gets into my clothing, my head begins to throb and my throat starts to close up ... just from their long coats alone.  My eyes are still burning from this afternoon's visit.

And you don't want to know about their food.  From the looks of things, I can pretty much guarantee I won't see a penny from her.  I gave her a great price-break...but not THAT great.  Still, I'd almost rather she take the money and sanitize her place, buy new pet food and get her dogs groomed.

The woman seems like a nice person with a generous spirit.  I have to rely on that experience.  But I knew I didn't want this gig.  I thought she was a friend of my friends when it turns out, they just met while walking their dogs the other morning.

Another hard lesson learned in the world of self-employment.

Off to visit them one last time for today [then three times tomorrow and again on Sunday]...

31 comments:

kathleenggoode said...

Your “Peacemobile” has to be the most ridiculous, asinine, anti-representation of “Peace” displayed in a “Peaceful” environment that I have ever witnessed.  It is an S-U-V!  SUV’s are nothing but vertical and horizontal Space Hogs.  They suck up gas, they block road signs, and they give space to fat Americans to grower fatter.  In addition, the very thought of one, spits in the faces of every citicizen of every nation that does not have the resources or the space to host such an extravagance.  An SUV is the epitome of capitalism, hence the very representation of oppression.  Hegemonic nations are consuming 80% of the world’s resources while only housing 20% of the world’s population.  Pro-capitalist excused their hegemonic actions by claiming to be smarter and the others are dumber.  However the truth is, the other nations were not as barbaric and less willing to hand their souls over for immediate gratification and gluttony.  Again, that picture is a disgrace!  

ryanagi said...

Jeeze Louise to the prior comment. Harsh much? Don't pay her no mind, Freee. I know you need the new PeaceMobile for your home business. You are not some yuppie spending disposable income and trying to look prosperous. Sheesh! -B

kathleenggoode said...

I thought about it afterwards and I know it is harsh.  I am not sorry for saying it in that way, however I do regret the grammar mistakes,  (I am trying to work on that).  Anyway, not being a yuppie, or not having disposable income is no excuse, SUV’s are not by any means peaceful.  If I was any nicer about it, the message will not get out there.  There is no need to sugar coat it and feel good about something that is shameful, especially if it is preventable.

lacapp8 said...

hi again.  something about the timing of your experience made me think.  some power, fate...the universe or whatever, put this person in front of you for a reason.  maybe highlighting how good you have it, your life is clean and healthy, loving and it is good.  you are talented, you can sing and express yourself, make beautiful music.  you have a shiny new car - a peacemobile!  hunny }:)     you've told others to see the good & allow the process to happen.   its around you.   stay on your journey... with light!  

i find it so strange that i am writing here.  i dont even know you.  expressing & communicating more is a good thing.     peace.  

donah42 said...

"Forgive the mess, I'm getting married."  Freee: "Please extend my condolences to your fiance...." Imagine if & when she has kids!! Arghhhhhh!!!!

dockart said...

In reference to the first comment posted below....good thing we have freedom of speech hey?!!
Freee, as for the new client, I hope you get paid... and hazardous duty pay at that! Maybe she did leave the money there......somewhere?! I'm still trying to figure out what getting married has to do with living in filth.
Did you get your doctor's appt? Feel better soon hun!
Now, I'm off to clean out my Fatmobile!

deveil said...

Love your peace ride, sorry you were having a rough day.  Do you have any of your music anywhere we can download it.  I bet your wonderful.  I'm sitting here listening to Lisa Johnson "Turn It Off".   Sometimes we have to learn lessons the hard way  I guess.  No more reruns of that experience, at least until they clean their house.

luckyaugustgirl said...

Yikes Free- Poor Pooch and poor YOU! Its good that you realize that puppies still need good care even though the owners are one can short of a six pack (of fruit juice). I hope she pays you.....

By the way, lovely addition to the peacemobile. :)

Keep on trucking...... :) have a better weekend Free... youve earned it. and if nothing else...... SMILE :) It will get better soon!

Sarah

krobbie67 said...

I love the Peacemobile addition. I got a chuckle out of the keeping your road rage in check. Too true!

I'm sorry this new client is turning out sour. When I used to babysit years ago, I would come across situations like that and tried not to allow it to taint my relationship with the children. After all, they are victims of the mess too. Give the pets lots of love and hopefully the woman will return quickly.

:-) ---Robbie

krobbie67 said...

I have no clue who that first commenter is Freee but please ignore their rudeness to comment on your life without knowing you or your needs. :-) ---Robbie

aynetal3 said...

Ya know Freee ... we used to take a lot of babysitting jobs when we were kids.  I walked only once into a type of house that you are describing.  I wanted to cry.  The kids were young and slept most the night and I just muddled through it washing dish after dirty dish.  I could not tolerate it surrounding me the way it was.  The one other thing I remembered about that night was their cat howling and crying outside the door like a baby.  Horrifying experience.  Never went back there, and after this woman returns I'd recommend to you to do the same.  Already, we fear how this terrible neglect is going to play on your sensitive, vibrant nerves.  Don't stay a moment longer before you put this nightmare to bed!

aynetal3 said...

Saw that commenter just now too Free ... Our thought is this is a person trying to force upon you her negativity toward personhood.  Your message is quite clearly stated.  "PEACE."  Let her fight her own extravegant demons.  House of Glass, stones and all.  If she is not happy with choices that are ONLY yours, then she's not the kind of person who would be happy with any one who is able to think for themselves.  Seems self-righteous.  Eh, we'll let it go now too.  We've had our say.

johnn60504 said...

Jeepers!  I'm not sure I even understand what that poster was trying to convey - driving an SUV for work purposes is...what?  Not peaceful?  What a crock!  I wonder if that poster drives down the highway railing against all the semi's and cement trucks and other work vehicles?  What about ambulances and fire trucks?  They use more gasoline that Free's SUV - those workers must be really unpeaceful and violent, eh?  

Trish - you use your vehicle for work, the same as hundreds of thousands of other people who do most of the living and working and buying and selling in this great nation of ours.  Don't take to heart what that little-minded person has to say.  Keep on trucking, hang in there, take care of yourself, and feel better!

John

johnn60504 said...

p.s. - I meant to include this in the previous message - have a great Independence Day!

ondinemonet said...

Hi Trish
            I hope there isn't a bigger tragety waiting to happen. I hate to even think this but would calling the animal control specialist be a good thing to maybe give her an official "wake-up call?" I don't know because they work different in different areas. You have such a big heart, it is quite noble of you to care for those pets so personally. Take care Lovey:) Always, carly :)
   

freeepeace said...

KATHLEEN - Shameful?  Nah.  No reason for it.  I'm very happy with my PeaceMobile.  It's reliable.  It's safe.  It handles the road very well.  I know because I drive all day.  It accommodates me and my life's work.  I worked my ass off to buy this vehicle.  I did extensive research [if you read my journal EVER, you'd know that].  I pay the same amount in gas as I did in a sedan.  So, I'm good!

It's obvious to me that you don't know a thing about me. Nor have you read my journal.  I would appreciate a fair trial before you lash your crass judgments my way.  Out of respect, I read your entire journal last night - and that gave me lots of insight into you and your rageful comments. [One could say it's just as 'shameful' that you shop at Wal-Mart just because you like their selection better than KMart or Target.  But who am I to judge?]

I think a better plight for you might be with the motor companies.  When they start making hybrid SUVs that are just as reliable - they have the means - I'll be the first in line.

I wish you well in this life's journey.  Peace.

freeepeace said...

DONNA - There are boxes on top of filth...perhaps that's the connection - she's in transition?  I didn't get in to see my doc.  I'll see her Tuesday.  I'm doing well though. Feeling better actually [aside from the sore throat and burning eyes from the moldy house visits].  Fatmobile - LOL.

DEVEIL - Welcome!  You can listen to my music on my website.  Just click the MUSIC link in the About Me section and go to LISTEN.  I'll have to check out Lisa Johnson. :)

SARAH - Thanks. I'm having a great weekend so far. Energy is up. And I like that!  The dogs are actually doing well. I just can't roll around with them because I'm too sensitive to the mold/germs. :(  But I let them run around like crazy today so they should sleep till tonight's visit.

freeepeace said...

RYANAGI - You gotta admit, 'disposable income' sounds real good...so long as we ALL have it. ;)

LACAPP - Welcome. Nice to meet you. Thanks for your comments.  Excellent point. I appreciate your take on things. Very much how I feel about life situations.  I know you said you're a non-AOL-Journaler but do you have an online blog or website?

DONAH - I still really don't understand what she meant.  Her pets really ARE great. And she really does have a warm spirit. I'm still learning from this one...

freeepeace said...

ROBBIE - No joke about the road rage. :)  The pets are getting love [and I'm planning to give them some clean treats tonight].  She's due back tomorrow.  We'll see how this all pans out.  I'm not worried about it. I see this as charity work. If I get paid, it'll be a bonus.  And thanks for your support. :)

AYNETAL - Oooh yes, I'm having babysitting flashbacks now too.  Wow.  I seem to have come to terms with this situation.  I'm showing up for the pets and that's what's important to me.  Thanks for your say - and support. xo

JOHN - Good point about all the many gas-guzzling work vehicles.  I'm trucking, hanging, caring and feeling a little better. Thanks John.

CARLY - I hear you about the wake-up call.  But I don't think it needs to go that far yet.  LA Animal shelters are overpopulated as it is - leaving most of the inmates on death row.  I'll express my concerns when she returns. Love you!

gatorspictures said...

whew. bad vibage near the bottom of commentland. ::::shudder:::::
Trish, love the spare cover---perfect!! You have a point, can't really express road rage with the bigger than life peace sign on the back...hahaha!
Glad to see you are feeling somewhat better...
Hopefully, the nice person with the warm spirit will pay you, and is just in absentmindedland because of her upcoming nuptuals? I hate to see animals living in that kind of environment, though...hard decisions.
c

screaminremo303 said...

Sorry to hear of the pups living in third-world conditions. I may joke about my animals, but they live like royalty around here.
That first commentess needs more fiber in her diet. I love the new look - and I'm rarely on the left side of the fence. It should be standard equipment on all cars.

quroboros said...

If the place is truly that bad, I'd consider calling a) Animal Welfare for the dogs and b) Social Services for the humans.

Re: Kathleen's comment.. Holy underwear!- and I thought Lewis Black was wound too tight!  You're obviously using your SUV for a valid purpose, so I don't understand what her problem is (literally).  I object to debutante babes driving Hummers strictly to impress, but PEACE and SUVs?.. did I miss something?  Or is this person just venting, coming unstuck on you because there isn't enough HEGEMONY in the world?  (Yeah, impress us all with your clever vocabulary, hun.)  Kathleen the Raconteur is simply being a prosaic, assiduous misanthrope with her laconic vituperation.. probably just a hebephrenic pariah.  (Stick THAT in your argot!)  ¤Holly

babyshark28 said...

because I have read your journal from it's earliest entries, I love the car and I love the sign. I KNOW what they mean to you, freee. :)   understanding with knowledge, it's a beautiful thing. :p
luv ya.
xo  

miarenee24 said...

I love the addition to your new set of wheels! I think it's thoughtful of you to buy something that is roomy, comfy and reliable for your clients! Lucky dogs, they are!

You are so right about the lessons learned in the self-employment world. My husband completed a job over a month ago. It's been more than a month since we invoiced and not ONE dime! They did send us a check, made out to the wrong business, and for only 1/4 of the amount.  The general contractor is in Texas, [God knows where] They will not return our calls :( Bummer.

jcgeorgiapeach said...

I love your new cover Trish.  Goes very well with your SUV.  Kudos for keeping Nasty Nellie's comments in, because I would venture to guess, she deletes any comments in her journal that doesn't agree with her opinions.  And spelling errors are the least of her problems.  You go girl!  ~Peachy

deabvt said...

Freee, Poor Kathleen....don`t worry `bout it!
V

sepintx said...

Looking very stylish! Great addition to the ride.

Sorry you got trolled, I was reading that one on the AOL Journal message board until I filtered the screenname.

slowmotionlife said...

Hiya darlin'... I'm sorry I wasn't around this weekend to help defend you against Miss. Capitalism Control.  Those of us who KNOW you realize that you drove around in an old busted down car FOREVER before attempting to do the right thing by the animals you care for by getting them a larger vehicle to be transported in.  And points aren't made by being ugly, no matter what he/she thinks.  Her comment does nothing more than create a defensive reaction.  It wasn't meant to make a point, anyway.  It was meant to rile you up and upset you.  I certainly hope you didn't let her win.  LOVE YOU!!

Also.. good luck with the new client.  So sad.  If you feel there are real neglect issues at work, could you possibly report her?

musenla said...

I like the peace sign.  =P

Whoa, that sounds like the client nightmares are made of.  I'm not sure which is worse, this one or the hoity toity couple with the big house who kept their babies in a cage in the kitchen!

Take care of yourself, hon.  Your health shoudl come first.  I say turn in the pets to the vet.  Your health is not worth taking this risk.

s0ngbird1962 said...

Yikes, your new client sounds like a nightmare.  I'm surprised none of her neighbors have complained about the stench.  Have you thought about dropping a dime on the conditions the animals are living in?  A bit off topic, but I stopped doing home visits because I never knew what I was walking into.  Sometimes it was as you described & I just wanted to turn and run....  

heartsingr said...

I'm wandering into Peace-land for the first time.  Hey, Freee, I think it's great what you're doing to take care of these animals.  I hope you'll get paid for what you do.  As for the SUV, heck, I'd have one if I could! Instead, I have to drive a sucky Astro van that just got hit by a deer, once it gets fixed, that is.