Sunday, June 20, 2004
Long Overdue Update
I figured I should take a picture of the bed while it was made. Lately, it rarely looks like this. I meant to post this yesterday but instead I crawled back in bed.
It's been a strenuous week. We hired some people to clean our apartment and do our laundry yesterday morning. I took Hunny out so she wouldn't get under their feet. Within four hours everything was done - and it was amazing. It felt so nice to return to a clean home. There is no way I have the energy to lift laundry or push a vacuum. To think something so simple was all I needed to feel less stressed. It was as if I had gotten a really good massage.
Finally, all the car-buying stuff seems to be coming to an end. Well, except for the cargo cover and heavy duty blankets. But I've got privacy glass, keyless entry and a shine that's supposedly guaranteed for six years. I also bought a pet divider so no doggies will jump in the front seat. For a while I thought I'd spent too much on this particular product. But after researching, it seems I found the best price - even better than most online deals. And I found the cheesiest peace sign to hang from the rear view mirror with my dragonfly. It lights up even! I'll have to try to get pics sometime.
It's been two-plus months of a healthy lifestyle. [Ironic that I'm sick, huh?] I recently started incorporating essential vitamins and herbs into my diet, mainly to boost my immune system during this mono-phase. But really, I should be taking these supplements daily anyway. I'm not much of a druggie. I have a very difficult time swallowing pills. So it usually takes a full liter bottle of water to get them all in, sometime after an oatmeal-banana breakfast.
The CR-V is chock-full of protein bars, trail mix and fresh water. I'm realizing I may need to buy a small cooler and pack a real lunch every day. There's nothing like white meat or fish when I'm in need of protein. And that's not easy for me to admit. I'm a vegetarian at heart. But my body craves the meat. Lately chicken, fish, vegetables, bananas, summer fruits, eggs and yogurt all sustain me. Meanwhile, my favorite ice cream sits untouched, getting freezer burn. And my favorite chocolate chip cookies are still sealed in the fridge. Every time I think about them, I want to get up and break into them. But I do know how important my diet is - especially while my immune system is compromised.
Don't get me wrong! I still have tea or coffee every day. I know I'm not supposed to have either...but I'm allowing it as my one vice. Not bad. I'm not eating things like pasta, bread, potatoes, candy, chips or pretzels. And in two months I've lost ten pounds and I-don't-know-how-many inches.
My sleep patterns are somewhat scattered. There doesn't seem to be any rhyme or reason for the fatigue. So, I do my best to stay in bed when I'm not working. I'm noticing I really only have [some] energy from 7am till about noon. Once the afternoon hits, there's no telling what might happen. I'm ready to crash. This is why I think I need real protein on the road... instead of at 3pm when I get home.
The fatigue is really a drag. It keeps me immobile. It's difficult to sit and hold my head up sometimes. I can hardly function like a normal human being. [who am I kidding - normal?] I've sat at the computer so many times, trying to squeeze out an entry for my journal when I usually end up feeling overwhelmed, plopping my head on my arms and snoozing at the desk.
I'd better stop writing, or this entry won't make it in either! I'm sorry for being so absent in AOL-J. I miss updating daily. I miss being connected with the community. But I'm sure you understand I'm taking care of myself. I'm determined to get well and stay well.