Life is amazing lately. I'm riding one long incredible wave. Part of me is a little apprehensive to give in to the joy. I'm so used to flying for a while and crashing hard. But this has gone on for a month now. And it keeps getting better. That's what makes me act with a little trepidation. Not expecting it but waiting for the fall. Y'know?
Tonight's rehearsal has been postponed. [whew] I could've done
it. I made copies of all my music and bought 3-ring binders for the
musicians and producer. I don't know if I've ever been so organized.
The only thing I haven't done is pick up my guitar. But we're
practicing on Saturday instead. And recording next Monday night. So I
have this week to brush up. Yay!
It was just so dang hot here today. The air conditioning in my
car didn't start cooling off till the sixth hour. I do a lot of
driving. I'm a little concerned about my car. It's making a rattling
noise - like a chain on a bike, or like a loose metal cap bouncing
under the hood. I need to get it checked. I can't afford to break
down. I drive all over the city. I think I put over 100 miles on my
car a day now. I should keep better track of that, now that I think
A while back I posted a few coveted items.
One of which I already bought - new shoes. Yay! Though I'm dogwalking
in the old ones, I have the new ones for non-dogwalking time. Ahhh, I
feel human again.
The second thing that I'll be acquiring from that list of covets is a real bed.
Oooooh, just thinking about it makes me wanna jump on it! A friend is
merging in her relationship - therefore her queen size [hardly used]
bed is available for me. I can't beat $50 for a queen box spring and mattress with pillow covering. Yay!
I admit, I'll miss the futon and all its hippy-ness. But I'm so
looking forward to the comfort of a real bed again. Then again, maybe
there's a reason I've been waking up at 7AM every day lately. I just
might sleep through my day if my bed is comfortable. Maybe I'll wait
till the weekend to pick it up.
I'm very close to having a third thing from that list of covets in my hands. Yay! But you'll be sure to know when that happens. Trust me.
I went to the Santa Monica Homeopathic Pharmacy today [finally] to get the exact information about what I need to do to take care of this [benign] tumor.
Putting it all on paper with the numbers next to it somehow made it
seem less intimidating and a lot more affordable than my mind
remembers. It's the same stuff I started taking almost two years ago.
I had to stop because I couldn't afford it. It's an aggressive
three-to-six-month program of herbs and homeopathics. I've already
gotten a head start with my diet - or "healthy lifestyle" as I like to
refer to it.
I'm gearing up and almost ready to attack this, head on. If work continues this way, I should be able to afford the meds. Yay!
It's a wonderful feeling, taking care of myself. I mean, I take
pretty good care of myself in general. Because I generally care about
myself. But something has shifted. I'm having another birthday this
year [funny how that happens] and I'm realizing, this is the only body
I will have in this lifetime.
So far, this body has been a rock! I've yet to have a broken
bone or stitches. I don't bruise easily. My hair and nails are thick
and strong. Sure I have sensitive skin and a few allergies. I have
some things that need to be checked out. But I'm so grateful for the
strength of this body - this tiny shell that's carried me through this
life on this planet for all these years. The least I can do is treat
it with love and kindness.
I've been so angry with my body for betraying me earlier in
life. It's high time I forgive myself - just another level. That will
only speed up the healing process and create a stronger body for the
rest of this life. Yay!
Next up: OB/GYN and then DENTIST. :::shiver:::