I am struggling. My writing is suffering. I keep starting and stopping. It's as if the passion has died. I believe in the cycle of things. I've written about it before. But this feels slightly different. In the past, I've felt anxious because I've wanted to write and I've had ideas, but they just weren't flowing with ease.
Lately I've been apathetic about writing. I've been lax in AOL-J. I've just not been interested. Perhaps because I haven't had the energy or motivation. But how would that come to be practically overnight? I'd call this a different form of writer's block.
Whether you're a writer by trade or for fun. What's your take on it? What's your experience of writer's block?
In my daily life, I'm finding my brain to be sluggish. I'm forgetting the simplest things. It's like I can see the lifetimes of information - but I can't reach it in time to have an intelligent conversation. As though it's locked behind a clear glass door. Names, dates, words are getting mixed up and completely lost.
I've always had a quick-wit. I've been able to tie things together with words and humor in split seconds. But lately, my mind draws a blank. I know what I want to say but when I open my mouth, nothing comes out. I watch people scrunch their faces, trying to help me grasp the information. But because they have no idea where I'm going in my train of thought, they can't help. It's not constant, but when it happens, it's consistent.
I imagine this is how an Alzheimer's patient feels all the time, with every little thing. If you've ever suffered any kind of memory loss, I now can relate. And it's very frustrating, because in these moments, I know the information is there. I just can't attain it.
When it comes to writing, if I can't remember a word or a name, I look it up, pop it in the text and move on. Maybe my brain has gotten lazy because I'm relying on technology too much. But maybe, just maybe I'm slowly losing my mind.
Can anyone relate to this? If so, how does it affect you? If not, how do you remember things throughout your life?