Today, of all days! A day when I'm anxious, on edge, worried about my career decisions. Not to mention my personal and spiritual life. Everything seems so up-in-the-air right now. Like I'm falling without a net.
It's okay. I go through this all the time. Something's gotta give. I'll bounce back, or I'll crash. Either way, I'm always caught in the arms of the universe. That's what my spirit knows.
It's what my brain tells me that messes me up. Thoughts get in the way of fully living sometimes. I've heard "the mind is a wonderful thing to lose." This makes complete sense. What keeps me locked in fear? Past experiences. Where do I store negative images of the past? My mind.
I lost a client last week. I loved their dogs. I wasn't even charging them full price for my services. And still I had to beg to get paid - the full amount - on time. These people were constantly disrespecting me and their dogs. I provided a safe, fun haven for their dogs twice a week. Other than that, they were locked in a cage in the kitchen most of the time. They fired me when I left a message for the fifth week in a row, saying I expect to be paid for my services. I won't miss the clients but my heart aches over how much I already miss their dogs.
On the flip side, I have one client/family who are greater than I could ever have imagined. They pay on time [usually early]. They love their dog as if she were their first born. And they love and respect me. I will go out of my way to provide the best service for them because they do the same for me. It's an even exchange of energy. That's what creating abundance is about.
Perhaps the loss of one client opens a door for a greater experience. Trust in the universe. Easier said than done. But great to aspire to.