Thursday, February 26, 2004

MRI Results

I talked to my surgeon about the results of my MRI today.  I don't know if you remember but she's kinda witty and funny but a little cocky.  We definitely have more of a rapport but I've still got my skeptical-walls up.

She said, "Well, your results are in.  And yes, there is a tumor, right where we felt it.  It's a centimeter and a half - about the size of a small grape."  I asked if it was attached to anything and if it travels into my throat, as the original outpatient surgeon had wondered.  She said it's oval shaped in the parotid [salivary] gland "in and around normal tissue." 

I told her I couldn't make a decision right now and I had to discuss this with my family. She said, "Sure, it's been two years, get back to me when you're ready."  She again said surgery is the way to go.  "Can't chemo it. Can't laser it."  She wants to "go ahead and cut it out while it's still small."

This is not new information.  There are no surprises here.  But still, I was a little surprised.  I'd heard of people living with tumors in their bodies forever without knowing about them. I had also heard of people finding masses in their brains from having MRIs done for other reasons. And if it hadn't been for that chance-MRI, they might've died within the year. 

So I had to ask, "Is there anything else in my head?"

Her answer, "Nope.  It's pretty empty up there."

30 comments:

queenz43 said...

{{{{Freee}}}} just wanted to send a BIG HUG your way and let you know I am keeping you in my thoughts and my prayers. I can definitely understand your needing some time to make a decision about this because this is about YOU! Sweetie, right now I don't know much else to say, words just aren't flowing right now.Forgive me for that, but do know that I care. I'll be checking on you, and I am sending you all the love I can muster ,~~RC

mallory4284 said...

This is one of those things I never know what to say....I'm bad with words....I'm sure it can't be an easy decision to make though. I'll be keeping you in my thoughts.

I did have to laugh though at that last little dialogue :)

-- Mallory

montaukny said...

::big hugs:: Is this all I can send you? At the moment, yes, because I'm feeling @ a loss for words...that whole karma-chameleon thing, I suppose. Not good news that there was a tumor, but turn it around & look @ the silver lining...it can be taken care of. Just remember, Aunt Nub's got you cradeled in a big old bear hug whenever you need it, sweetie! ~Aunt Nub~

diannevan said...

Yep, your head must be empty... but you're heart is full. :) Now get the damn surgery so we don't have to worry anymore!

geminiwilder said...

peaceful, soothing vibes coming your way, freee, all the way from me......i'm sure you will make the right decision for you. ~cindy

alphawoman1 said...

Sounds very encouraging. Thank God.
Mary

sonensmilinmon said...

Empty head, loaded heart! I'm at a loss of words ... get the surgery so we won't all sit and worry ~ I'm a worry wart!
Hugs,
Mon

irun01 said...

Your head is sooooooooo far from empty. Think, talk, and make the decision that is best for my favorite Rock Star. I've got your back dude . . . .

kemh632 said...

I'm so sorry! I wish I could help.

s0ngbird1962 said...

I think your Dr's response was funny.... her way of giving some comfort that everything else looked fine. Take deep breaths & follow your heart. You'll make the right decision and everything will be alright....

slowmotionlife said...

Your doctor is a hoot! LoL I can see why you like her. And I know you can't be too surprised to have gotten this news. I know you were prepared for it. I'm just glad now that you have the information you need to move forward, make informed decisions [YOUR decisions], and no longer worry about possible unknowns. You know we all love you and care about you - both physically and emotionally. I'm always here if you need me. ::hugs::

cw2smom said...

Keep laughing, because it's very healing! My thoughts are with you!

sepintx said...

Hey! This is good, no new information to fret over and I am glad your head is empty as strange as that sounds. Your head is not empty.

Got any teaching hospitals around? Might be a another surgical procedure out there.

Happy :-)

bridgetteleigh75 said...

hehehe...Oh, I like this doctor of yours! LOL You have to love that sharp wit!

I'm glad the results came back pretty much as you expected. Now just take your time and figure out what works best for you. If you choose surgery...I'll find you as much literature as I can regarding the procedure. What else is an OR nurse good for? =)

I love you, sweetie.
Bridgett

nikki247 said...

Wow. I am sorry that you have to go through with this. It's good that you are prepared though, from reading your journal, I know you are a strong person -- I really hope that everything goes well for you...MRI's have always been scary for me especially when they are the bearer of bad news...You definetly have a strong support group so that makes an incredible pair.

babyshark28 said...

well, phew, the information is now out and you know. now you can just go from here. :) take care freee xxoo

freeepeace said...

RC - Thank you for thinking of me - I appreciate your kindness, always.

MALLORY - That last line was funny. My surgeon and I both laughed about it.

AUNT NUB - I've been aware of the tummor for two years. So that was no surprise. I was relieved to find out it's still small and not "wrapped around" anything. In case you don't know, it's also benign. Thanks for the hugs ::hugs back::

freeepeace said...

MONICA - Ha! I'll take the loaded heart as a compliment. And again, surgery is last resort. I'm taking the MRI results to the SM Homeopathic Pharmacy to discuss it. No worries :)

IRUN - Thanks for getting my back man, as always! I truly appreciate your support on a daily basis.

KEMH - By leaving a comment, I feel your support. That helps. Thank you.

freeepeace said...

DIANNE - I know you disagree - but surgery is the very absolute last resort. At this moment, it's not an option for me. Which is why the MRI was ordered to begin with! Care, but please don't worry. :)

CINDY - Awww, thank you for the vibes. Exactly what I need. Appreciated :)

MARY - Yes, thank God. Thanks for checking in.

freeepeace said...

MICHELLE - Yeah, I was comforted by her humor, even if it was a joke at my expense :P Thank you for supporting my process.

SLOMO - That's exactly how I feel - relief! No worries about possible unknowns. Ahhh. I feel loved and supported here. I was shocked to find so many comments so fast! And thank you - you're a dear friend. I know where to find you ::hugs back::

CW2SMOM - Great reminder. Laughter is healing. Thank you. :)

freeepeace said...

NIKKI - The MRI terrified me so much it took me a year and a half to schedule it. What did you have MRIs for? And I do have a strong support group - in AOL-J and in L.A. :)

SHARKY - Phew is right - kinda. ha! I still have to make that "informed decision." But at least I have the information. xo

freeepeace said...

STEVEN - Ha! Yes, I'm glad my head is empty too :P If I were to go through with any kind of surgery, I would have this surgeon do it. I trust her. I lucked out with her [given the insurance I have] Thank you, happy too!

BRIDGETT - I do love her sharp wit. I wonder what she's like during surgery. Ha! Ohh, I'd better stop wondering - it'll only freak me out. hehe And you better believe I'll call on your OR Nurse experiences for info on this one! Thanks love! xo

andreakingme said...

Snort! Well, this joking is a good sign, I think.

WHERE exactly is the tumor? (I think you said behind an ear?)

freeepeace said...

ANDREA - Yes, the tumor is behind my right ear - inside my parotid [salivary] gland. These usually show up in the cheek, but mine just HAD to be different! :P

miarenee24 said...

I read this last night and got booted during my comment. I am breathing a sigh of relief that it hasn't grown anymore in size. She's not in a hurry to remove it. That is a good thing. If she had said, "I wouldn't put it off. let's do it asap" I would be more worried. (you know how good I am @ worrying) Still, surgery isn't something to jump into. Glad you are taking your time. I am glad that you "can" take your time. Oh, and it's not 'empty' up there :) Luv ya

lucylouladybug said...

I'm glad that it turned out to be just want you thought, no new surprises.
As far as the empty head thing, what does she know! Just making fun
with her humor.
Love, Penny

clarity4today said...

((Freee)) I guess you were glad to have some more information. Glad that MRI is over, too.

At least your doctor has a sense of humor. Sometimes that can be comforting. :-)

musenla said...

Har har, that last statement made me snort out loud. What a smart*ss! I hope you gave her a big slap on the back for that one, heh.

I'm glad to know that at least your condition is stable. By the sound of it you can take your time making a decision, and that's good.

krobbie67 said...

A surgeon with a funny side! Amazing! My roommate two years ago was having horrible migraines, when an MRI discovered a brain tumor. Sometimes it's hard to know but sometimes it is better. I'm so glad you went and found out just what was going on. I know I feel better. :-) ---Robbie

itsjustusinnc said...

ROTFL!! Not at the whole tumor thing of course, but at that last statement. LOL! Well Freee, I think you're gonna be alright! But then I knew you were all along. :-)

Gregg