Saturday, January 24, 2004

Books & Journals [2]

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Thinking about it ... that's why I love reading journals.  I've never done so much reading as I have these last few months!  I survived high school and college without reading the required literature.  I skimmed books and paid attention.  That's how I passed - and got praised for my reports!

I'll never forget my H.S. English teacher, Mr. Fontaine, [who rarely gave A's] photocopied my report to hand out to the class and an entire lecture was spent on my "perfect example."  I was terrified.  I didn't have the nerve to tell him I hadn't read the book.  I just took good notes from his lectures.  I mean, come on: One Day in the Life of Ivan Denisovich? Seriously, what's it about?

I remember going to a bookstore with a strange, eager feeling.  I said, "I'm looking for a book about me."  I had all these unanswered questions, overwhelming emotions, intriguing curiosities.  I wanted to understand what it all meant.  But I didn't know where to begin.  Where was that book with a mirror on it that reads, "This is You"?  That's the one I wanted!

Well, eleven years and a handful of wonderful books later, I realize there's nothing in a book that will ever come close to capturing the true essence of me.  Except for the three boxes of personal journals sitting in my closet.

I think that's why I love to read other journals so much.  It's a true window to the soul.  I'm drawn to the spirit of the journalist.  I love getting to know people through their art.  But there's something deeply intriguing about that creator's life story in words.  Oh, put the two together and it's heaven on earth!

15 comments:

slowmotionlife said...

I love journals, too. If I love a certain writer, I always try to see if they have a journal published or a book of letters written, etc. Plath and Nin have wonderful journals. But online journals are very interesting because they're very in-the-now. I don't know what half of my family members are up to on a daily basis, but I can depend on the fact that when I come here, you'll show me what your day had in store for you. There's a wonderful comfort in that. :)

robbygoe said...

Reading journals gets addicting, Your right it does show a window into someone's soul. It's also great to read about what others are doing, it opens your mind to new things. Those personal journals or yours would for surely be an interesting read. I never kept a journal before, either online or on paper. I can't believe you have 3 boxes full of them. What a treasure trove of window shopping to your soul.

itsjustusinnc said...

LMAO! at your HS story! And 3 BOXES OF JOURNALS?!?? Sheesh! Yeah, this journaling thing is SO addictive it's not funny. Reading other's life experiences is a nice, safe escape too when you just need a break.

Gregg

babyshark28 said...

ahhh. you have wondeful words, I am not surprised the teacher copied and your work and handed it out!
and your journal my dear...is always an open door. inviting. refreshing. I feel at home here. :)

freeepeace said...

SloMo, I'm going to the library to see if I can get Plath and Nin. Otherwise, I found them on half and amazon. I feel the same about visiting you. There *is* comfort in that.

Robby, journal reading is addicting. Get used to it. I'm surprised I haven't given up already. I'm over the honeymoon phase and I'm still in love. I have over ten years of journals in those boxes. I sometimes revisit them for reflection - very helpful and insightful.

freeepeace said...

Gregg, leave it to you to see reading journals from another prospective. It's true, it's a "safe escape" sometimes. Yes, 3 boxes! Glad you got a kick out of the HS story [even though I really feel bad about it - I mean, I earned an A by finding a loophole. Ah well!]

Sharky, aww...it's nice to hear you feel at home here. Made me think I should offer tea or coffee at the door. Chocolate perhaps? Thank you for your kind words, as always. Love you!

donah42 said...

Hey freee, I've got a ton of journals too...I just found my first one & posted some of my first entries on my journal. I like revisiting my "former selves"& am hoping to pass them on to my daughter when she reaches the ages when they were written....This journal stuff IS addictive!

alphawoman1 said...

Your talent amazes me over and over and over. You would think I would cease to be amazed you are so gifted.
Mary

metski715 said...

Freee,
I am the same way. Ive read enough journals to equal a couple of books. I just cant get enough of it. Thats all I do online. I love to see the view of everyone elses world. Each view is so interesting to me.
Ive got a recommendation for a book. Its called 'Closer to the Light' by Melvin Morse. You can look it up on Amazon. Its a book about the near death experiences of children. So pure and heartwarming. Really changed my views on things.
:)
chris

sunflowerkat321 said...

I started into journalling as a skeptic. I didn't know that I would be comfortable writing, and I didn't know if I would stay interested in other blogs. But I am HOOKED! I can't imagine letting a day go by without checking on my favorites (and the list is getting long). I admire the talent and the candor and the soul I find in so many entries. I think it's an incredible phenomenon.

aynetal3 said...

Dear, dear Freee ... you be the one marked, "Spirit set free!" "window to the soul." For a couple of moments daily, each stops to take note of what notions are occuring at that very second. Fingers sweep across the keyboard and during those so fleeting seconds, you are one on one with the world and all its wonders. Somedays it's no bigger than one tiny peak, and on other days you swoop through valleys gathering collective tidings. All is well, all is well! Our love, Jesse and Sarah

rinakatay21 said...

I did that too! I could totally pay attention and take notes and write total kick butt papers! I couldn't get away with it as much in college...all American Studies is *IS* reading. But..they were some great books...so looking back...I can't complain. Lord knows I did at the time! =D Find Lakota Woman. I loved that when I read it. =)

musenla said...

Unlike you fiction is my thing. But I went through a stage when I was into self-improvement books. Sheesh, you mean to tell me I could've gotten through school withouth reading all dem books cover to cover? I could've been having fun instead, sigh. Eh, who am I fooling, no denying I'm a bookworm.

I didn't know you're such a prolific journaler, even before AOL-J. Ohh, if those journals can talk!

clarity4today said...

Well, gosh, I'm always surprised to hear that you don't read more fiction. You're such a great writer, and it *seems like you would be a reader. But, now I have figured it out. LOL You *are a reader. You enjoy reading journals, nonfiction, etc. It's about your taste, not that you don't read at all. There's no reason to force yourself to read anything you don't enjoy.:-)

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