I just remembered why I am so turned off by this whole thing. I spoke with the Doctor/Surgeon this morning. She said, "You may not believe this but I still have a post-it on my phone with your name and number from last year. You wanted to do something holistic about it right? I knew you'd get around to calling me." Although she appears friendly, very upbeat and lively, she's really cocky. She was the one who scheduled the former MRI and CT Scan. But today she said, "If the lump is still there, we don't have to do the tests. We know what it is. [insert speedy-spoken technical medical jargon here] If it goes untreated for a long time it can turn into cancer."
Somewhere in the technical talk I heard the words "one centimeter" so I asked her how she knew the size of it. That lead to faster-medical-talk. Last year she said I needed an MRI and CT Scan so they could see details like size, location, growth, matter, etc. I practically begged for these tests this morning, saying I wanted to know where, what, how... all the stuff she tried to convince me of before. She said, "Well we know it's there. Do you want to make an appointment with me so I can feel it and tell you it's still there?"
This is what my mind said: NO I never want to see or speak with you again. I want an MRI and CT Scan. And I want my insurance company to cover the homeopathic medicine that will cure me!
This is what my mouth said: OK
After all that, I'm right back where I started. I have a scheduled appointment on January 6th. See? THIS is why I need someone with me.