I've been listening to such great music lately. I go through extreme phases where I just can't get enough of a certain artist or song or style of music. To the point where it haunts me in my sleep. [I've written a few songs in my sleep/dreams] Then I go through phases where music bores me or grates on my nerves, making me anxious. These phases can last for weeks, sometimes months. When I'm done with a "round" of music-listening, I find silence to be most comforting.
I had an epiphany last night that because I'm so moved by the music I love today, I find it impossible to write my own music. These artists are saying it all, better than I can in this moment. I'm bored with my own music. Since I now understand that I go through these phases, I have to surrender to the process. I may be bored right now but this is the honing process. I have to trust that. I can't think about writing a good song. It just has to happen. So, just in case, I've been sitting around with my guitar in hand for the past few days. Before I had a computer, I wrote all my songs in longhand. So I have notebooks all over the apartment, open and ready for that moment of inspiration.
Another thing I thought of [and this makes sense to me] is that I've been writing a lot lately. My creative writing has been taking a different form - being spilled all over this journal, in emails, in comments, even in my website and instant messages. Not to mention my personal journaling. One can only write so much!
It's all good! Something's happening inside. I trust.