Tuesday, October 28, 2003

shifting focus

This is as real as it gets.  It's a scary thing - vulnerability.  It's one thing to write to the faceless world.  It's easy to sing to that world.  It's also a piece of cake to mark up images so much that it would be impossible to recognize the face.  But tonight I risk losing face-lessness.

It's time to shift focus.  There's a lot to consider when other (innocent) people are involved in an AOL-Journaler's life.  As I delve into my process - and share it with 'the world' - I need to get clear about my intentions.  One of the reasons I started this journal was to have a candid place to release whatever needed to be released. It was also my intention to hash out some creativity and play a little bit.  As my journal developed I began putting obvious signs of the real me in here.  Then I added my music.  So much for being candid.  I need to take full responsibility for the content in my journal.  I've noticed my counter is skyrocketing yet most of the same people are leaving comments.  So before this gets way out of hand, I've decided to make a few subtle but very important changes.   I've made some great friends, met some very interesting people and I am excited about continuing on this path.  I thank you all for your support (comment or no comment). 

15 comments:

vanishingxphile said...

This is most def. understandable. I had to do it once myself awhile ago.. Thank God for precious friends to catch you as you fall. (Love you Penny, Risha) I'll keep reading you no matter what changes =-D
Erin

s0ngbird1962 said...

Hey Freepeace, thanks for popping by my journal yesterday. I found your journal link while browsing OnWhiningWell's journal... Having 3 kiddo's don't have time to blog or read as much as I'd like, but yours is one I always peek at. : ) I've always been into music/write poems/a few songs but never followed my dream.
I think you can make it, if you keep following yours....

musenla said...

I love this pic of you and Honey! This is the Freeepeace I know, wink. Psst, great smile. =)

babyshark28 said...

Wow, I guess it is skyrocketing! And look at you, face on at the camera..your beautiful. truly. inside and out. and I am not talking about the Cockerspaniel! though he/she is adorable. I can't wait for you to delve into the process and share it with us, we'll be hearing, reading, or leaving comments - supporting you all the way. :)

dazeychic said...

Vulnerability. Ooo, I just Hate that word! Full of so much emotion and truth. Vulnerability keeps me from sending my work to a publisher. Vulnerability keeps me from reaching my dreams and keeps me from sharing my bad days. Vulnerability is not my friend. I feel as though it chases me until I give in and surrender in tears. You are not alone in feeling this way, and anytime you need to talk..Im here for you! Any intentions you have are A-OK with me..candid or not. ~Shells

dazeychic said...

Did I JUST say "A-OK"!?
Ug!
~Shells

chefgracegeorge said...

Missed you and thanks for missing me! It took me a while to catch up on your entries that I'd missed while I was un-connected. So strange- when I was last here, your blog was like a small, corner coffee shop, and now- it's like friggin' Starbucks! I'm sure that your new-found popularity is due in part to sharing your wonderful music. I'm sorry that I wasn't here for you during your "down time". I'm glad you're gaining an appreciative audience for your blog and your art.

andreakingme said...

Why is it that the most talented people on the planet seem to have such powerful inner demons? I'm not looking for an answer, I'm just sending this question into the electronic void.

Fall back on your creative talents, Feep. That's what I always do when life seems intolerable. Those little devil's imps can kiss my ...

aims814 said...

Hi Freee! Love the picture up there, I had to bring Stephen in here to see! he loves pretty girls and puppies :) I am one of those who visits often, and seldom have time to leave a comment. btw, Stephen pointed at the picture you guys, smiled really big (you know that big smle of his) and started clapping his hands. He's saying a lot there! :) Love~mia and stephen

raisinglouisiana said...

I share the same sentiments as Erin "vanishingxphile."
I also understand where you're coming from.
Be yourself, and continued blessings on your journey
to peace...
Love, Penny

sepintx said...

Wonderful photo of you!

aynetal3 said...

Ahh Freee - you are riveting! *Silly Grin* We looked up, "vulnerable." One definition was, "open to attack or damage." I am guessing that might be one aspect of journaling, but by far (beside Frank, giggle), we see a lot of good out there and not to much of the bad stuff. Most often we see you inspiring the beauty and strength of others. Any reason to believe the cup isn't half full, Especially when searching your own canyons? Love you much! Jamie & Lissa

rebafandj said...

Aww!! Look! TWINS! :-Þ Seriously...enter this photo in "Pet look-a-like" contest. ~DJ

isabelzmia said...

You're beautiful ... love your eyes! ;-) ~ Isabel

slowmotionlife said...

I already told you this, but I absolutely LOVE this picture. You're so friggin beautiful! [Inside and out!] I understand your need for a shift in focus as I had to do the same thing. I don't think any of us realize the impact that sharing our life in such a public forum will have on us until people start responding to it. You don't have to give all of yourself away in order to let us into your life. I for one am so very grateful that you're willing to show us your world.